I HAVE MOVED HERE

OFF TO THAILAND TILL THE TENTH,
WHOOPEE!!!

I have been lying in bed dying for the past few days and I want to get better right fucking now. My head is throbbing, I've been breaking out in cold sweat, I'm starting to sound like a man again, my nose is blocked/runny (its a little confused), my hands are shaky...

And all I can think about is running down to Holland V for a nice mani-pedi before I leave for Thailand :/

I need you.
To hold my hand when I'm afraid.
To wipe my tears away as they roll down my cheeks.
To re-assure me when I need assurance.
To provide the arms I can collapse into when life gets too tiring.
To love me when I feel like I can't love myself.
I need you beside me.

One minute I feel like I'm about to explode with joy and happiness and everything seems hilarious and the next minute it seems like everything is wrong with the world and I get so easily agitated and angry over the littlest things. And going out late at night and roaming the city doesn't make me happy like it used to. The novelty of this city is gone. And each day is becoming a long, tiring struggle.

And sometimes, I would lie in bed and think about my HSC results and I would have an instantaneous panic attack. Beads of cold sweat will form on my forehead, I start hyperventilating, my heart beats so hard and fast it feels like I'm about to get a heart attack and my hands start to shake. The prospect of not getting into uni worries me, endlessly.

Inside I'm a mess. But on the outside I maintain a semi-cheerful demeanour.
But its getting tiring.

I need this holiday. I am this close to free-falling off the edge.

In a week's time I would (hopefully) be in Koh Lanta with Nomsie, away from the hustle&bustle of the city, away from the noise and the pollution, away from the problems at home, away away away! Just me and Nom and pure unadulterated relaxation and opulent luxury at the Sri Lanta Resort. I CAN'T WAIT! Its the holiday I've been looking forward to all year :B

If you haven't caught it yet, Enchanted is just about the best movie in the world, IMO. I am absolutely head over heels in love with it! The music, the story, the characters (Hello Patrick Dempsey), everything about it is just wonderful (except for the pigeon thing that REALLY fucking freaked the shit out of me). It is a MUST WATCH!!! I rate it a 10 out of 5! But then again, you know me, I'm the head-in-the-clouds fairy-tale happily-ever-after princess-loving kind of girl. Anyway if you aren't watching it for the story, Patrick Dempsey is reason enough to catch it, no? ;)

Ok I'm off to dream princess dreams :)))))) Sleep tight kids. And Good Morning Australia! Congrats on Rudd and boohoo about Matt :(

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Close my eyes when I go to bed and I
Dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say that
Everything will be wonderful some day
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays, I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.

Superlative Fun!

I am most likely to:
Know how to swear in twelve different languages
Google everything
Be distracted by shiny objects (ooh shiny!)
Live for chocolate
Have a closet full of Manolo Blahniks Christian Louboutins (in my dreams of course)
Use the word Superfluous correctly
Love good food. Yum.
Live abroad.
Cut class.
Giggity giggity giggity!
Cry After reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Be a drama queen
Overdose on Sushi
Turn to Wikipedia for all of life's questions
Wear out a pair of flipflops (duhh havis)
FORGET WHAT THEY WERE SAYING MID-SENTENCE
Text until they can't text no more
Sing in the shower
Owe you money (haha nom)
Find a sexual innuendo even if its not there

Okay fuck I should really go find something to do with myself.

After all the late nights, walking around in high heels that bruise your toes, dancing, alcohol, unhealthy food- my body has decided to stage a protest and I have been in bed recuperating for the last two days. No knitting, no cross-stitching, just pure sleep! (and Gossip Girl episodes in between, lovesitbtw!)

Nom & Fang's trip to Singapore commenced

with them eating a whole pack of Pretz Larb in the aeroplane while a creepy man looked on.
Then it was off to Far East Plaza for a plate of Chicken Rice which turned out to be their staple meal for the next few days and on the way there we had to take The Mandatory Cab Photo

After which we indulged dinner of Crab cooked in EggYolk, Cereal Chicken (I only ate the cereal) and Sambal Stingray leaving Nom looking like this

and Fang disappeared amongst the bushes to make like a treetrunk

After an agonising wait for a cab and me tottering in high heels, we finally reached Cafe Del Mar where we sat and talked about Politics (?!), Marriage, Infidelity, Children and other serious matters with Mojitos and Pina Coladas in hand



After the not-so-nice drinks, we decided to go for Prata and there was a paparazzi camera following us along the way to the cab stand (!!!)

And so we posed for them with a message saying

Hear no evil, speak no evil and see no evil.
By which time the cab had already arrived and we headed to Spize for Cheese&Mushroom Prata, Roti Tissue and Horlicks and Milo Dinosaurs which made our already full stomachs expand further leaving us all sick and even full-er.


The next day we roamed around town taking touristy shots, ravishing more attention on the unpopular items because Nom said we have to be fair to everything and everyone

Of course, we also gave the M&Ms a chance

And I knew Nom was a head-turner but I never thought she'd stop traffic

And that she was into flowers

We had another dinner of crab noodles, chicken, and several other dishes and headed to Velvet for martinis and gin&tonics. Danced in Phuture for a good two hours before the crowd started to really annoy me and we got the hell out of there and headed to the Clinic at Cannery where we drank Fiji Water and I rested my aching feet and tired eyes on the "hospital bed" and watched the guy sitting next to us spew and nonchalantly walk away (what inconsiderate imbecile)


The Life Of The Sloth: Eat, Sleep and Eat while Sleeping

After The Sloth got up we rushed down for Andy Warhol's exhibition which got Fang a little excited


And we had dinner at Old Airport road before we went to Oosh (the nicest bar in Singapore IMO) where we had a bottle of Veuve Cliquot to celebrate old friendships + newfoundfriends + good times ahead







Went to MOS and danced for a bit and got a little bored so we settled on Coffee Club in town after heading to Eski Bar only to find that it was already closed. Singapore is awfully boring during the day and hectic during the night but I hope they had a good time anyway!
Now I'm back to being friendless and bored and hermit-y. Shall go find my knitting needles Susan & Tina and start knitting a scarf or something. Or make friends with the VideoEzy people. Or start my massive cross-stitch project. Or just rot on my bed.

P.S. I was wearing the same shirt cos I had nothing to wear- someone needs to do some shopping (i.e. me)